where the cows eat grass

i have just been blog surfing. just randomly reading a few people’s blogs. of those whom i know personally of course. i didnt realise there are so many sad souls out there ): they appear so bubbly outside but their hearts are all so broken. unrequited love and yea teenage angst. but its so sad.. and theres nothing much you can say to them. so what happens when you try to pray to God for solace. but the harder you pray , the faster those tears fall?

sigh. how come. all of us, schooling or not. we have insomnia. so thank goodness i seldom have it. hmmm anyway, i hope my friends doing psychology in the uni can help next time, to learn how to mend broken hearts and save people.

oh oh a random thing. i borrowed a chinese book from the library to read. i havent been reading a proper article/book in chinese for abt 1.5years ): so my chinese is damn freak bad now. realised it when i was trying to help my aunt translate some articles. hahah but the book is by the local author you jin. me and liyun loved her since lower sec. and our writing style is influenced by her. kinda(: i will totally worship her if shes my chinese teacher.

shuhui is going to take a nap.

i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.
i will not drink till i puke in future.

shuhui is very sad bacause of certain stuff now.

hello. i was watching on youtube several fanmade mvs on the show my lucky star. the songs are so damn nice but i couldnt figure out the title of the korean song! pfft. anyway, i heard from my friends that they have received their freshman handbooks and we are supposed to decide if we are staying in hostels by 20 june?! so soon lah…i haven even receive mine and i stil cant decide to stay or not =/
haha im also quite indecisive at heart too, right shuhui ? (: haha.

i am actually indecisive at heart. people say be careful with what you wish, and i always regret what i wished ): so i think im the type who dont know what i want. sucks right.

shuhui is still indecisive.

lols. i tried so many times before i could post here. reason being i kept typing our ***** password. HAHA. anyway, i really ought/am thankful for my uni stuffs..yeah. its all God’s grace and help to give me what i have today..i am deeply thankful..really.. sometimes i just cant stand certain person..( this person from my church and your sec sch ) who made the whole thing seem unfair and stuff.. yeah. wadever don bother anymore.
time flies, we have worked for 5 MOnths! okay. no more efi, mn, rm, no more scanning and no more fishball mee chicken rice and wanton mee LOLS. but yeah..good memories of our first job yeah? (:
so yeah, before we embark on our uni life in july/ aug, lets play hard and enjoy ourselves :D 

                                    joyce wants to stop worrying bout unnecessary stuffs.

 CLICK HERE.

its just about 10years down the road. i guess Mankind dies slowly. through natural disasters, pandemics etc ): the link above kinda makes me sad. because ten years down the road, i might not have settled down and my dreams havent been fulfilled yet. what juseleeno predicted are mostly true i guess, esp since he predicted the 2004 tsunami’s exact date and magnitude of the tidal waves 8 years before it really happened. its astounding.

i dont know why people claim that he’s “disgusting” because they pereceive it as “gloating” and annoucing to the world his premonitions. but i mean can he help it? when those dreams come? he will defnitely feel obliged to pre-warn people and its really up to us to believe not. &i say he’s the most helpless of all. he can predict but he cant do anything to stop it! so people, dont rub in anymore. i just feel sad for myself because theres so much to do and meanwhile, you see people on our planet, our fellowship, dying from disasters. death tolls reaching millions. and when that comes, will there be any purpose in our lives? i mean us, who are still alive but helpless?

i still want to be a banker, settle down, have children and send them to good schools. but if we all perish by then, our dreams will die too. children who have yet attended unis just dissipate into thin air when asteriod hits, and so do old people who had led a fruitful life. maybe im thinking along the self centered line because im more saddened by how the whole armaggedon thing will affect my hopes and dreams rather than its destruction per se.

i was talking to my brother abt how i will want to die too, if i see everyone else dying. he said ” the last tiger will not mourn its own passing”. HAHA. does it sound familiar!! apparently its from this GP compre that we all did and  i vividly remember that i interpret the sentence wrgly as “the tiger will want to die too. why should it mourn!”. which is not the answer, and i cant remember what was it either! but anyway, my false answer still holds through now. aye.

married couples say “lets grow old together”. will we even have the chance to do so? ): I HAVE GREAT HOPES/EXPECTATIONS IN MY LIFE YOU KNOW.

sorry im super pessisimistic right now.
but yay! my friend say i can transfer frm nus acct to biz anytime. cos the degree says bachelor of biz management. not bachelor of acct. heee(: &i will call up smu and demand an answer from them! grrr. cos i need to send alot stuff to nus by 2nd june. if im accepting!

 shuhui loves the planet!

pffft. i had mos burger for dinner yesterday and then i went mos after that.  mos sucks and i hate it i hate it!! grrr. im feeling weird this few days too. like im suppose to feel something but im not feeling anything.

im dreading the new week ahead. and it hasnt even started.

shuhui is not very happy about life now.

hihi. its the end of the week. im relieved..though i just got a day off yesterday? haha.
haha congrats to shuhui too! (:  im sure u’re gotta get in to both nus and smu (: ure so smarrt!

sigh, things are not going right anymore, i really dunno why.
how fragile is.. love.. ?

anyway, with the myanmar cyclone and sichuan’s earthquake, its even clearer how fragile, unpredictable life is.
its all unfair. yes life’s unfair.
let us all do a prayer for the victims everyday, that God will give them comfort and strength, to have faith in our Almighty Father.

i want to be as happy as my dogs.

                                     joyce thinks that life is unfair indeed.  

Josef Fritzl ‘Planned Dungeon For Years’

A man who imprisoned his daughter for 24 years and fathered seven children by her, started planning the dungeon beneath his house when she was just 12 years old, it has emerged. He started planning to build the windowless prison, which was separated from the house by eight locked doors, as long ago as 1978. He later forced Elisabeth to live in the dungeon for 24 years, where he repeatedly raped her, while telling his wife she had run away to join a cult. Three of her children were then forced to live in the dungeon, while another three were taken upstairs to live. The eldest of the imprisoned children is fighting for her life in hospital. The need to get her medical help was what led to their discovery. All the other members of the family, including Fritzl’s wife, are now learning how to live together, and those who lived underground are slowly adjusting to daylight and being around other people.

for more details, visit xiaxue’s blog!

joyce thinks sucha devil should be castrated and be locked in a hornet’s cage and die peacefully!

hello. today is really monday blues. but yay, we ARE gonna have dance class later. (:
and, im quite annoyed with my incomplete piano composition and my piano teacher just have to be at bali now. shiz. ):
recap. sat was terrible in the day. major conflict with the mother. i really feel bad yelling at her just cos of my own stuffs. yesterday night i was watching this scv show talking bout pp with complicated family bacgrounds. these sorta things are actually quite common overseas( my show’s about taiwan anw) pp who was abandoned by their parents and was abused by their steps..much more much more. i couldnt help but cry out as i thought of my mum’s plight when she’s young. i thought of how immature and rude i always treat her. i really cannot afford to keep quarrelling wit her..i don wanna regret in the future..

on a sidenote, may shuhui get into a course she wants! (: ciaoz! 

                                                         joyce is very very tired.